May 26, 2022, this was the date that me and Lils finished packing up our 3 bedroom 2 bathroom house and got into our C300 for a month long road trip. Our goal was to leave our fast paced, non sustainable lifestyle behind us, and that was what we started by packing up and leaving Atlanta. Initially our goal was to drive to Columbus Ga (Lils hometown) and stay for 2 weeks, and then from Columbus Ga, we were headed to Panama City Beach Fl to stay for another 2 weeks, then drive to Philadelphia Pa, to spend time with my family, and then our goal was to take our time driving across country allowing ourselves 1 week to travel and explore different cities while we headed to Phoenix Az.

We did the the first 3 trips, Columbus, PCB and Philly, however we never made it to Phoenix, this new life meant leaving a life of force and easing into a life of flow, trusting both our guides and ourselves to lead us to where we needed to be.

We left Columbus with the intention of staying in PCB for 2 weeks, however that 2 weeks turned into 7 whole months, like wow, never imaged the freedom of just being, and being able to adapt so effortlessly. Effortlessness was what it felt like being in PCB, everyday was a new day of ease, sitting by the Ocean, long boarding, teaching Lils How to long board, trying to find good food in a tourist town lol, training my body, eating healthier, creating for fun and not for funds, and just being still and present. As easeful as this time was for us, it also called for alot of shadow work, things that we may have been suppressing while living in survival mode, were starting to show up. So we allowed ourselves to flow into those deep dark wounds that we were living with, we cried a lot, we spoke our minds a lot more, we grew in distance with some family members and friends, and just all around had a lot of things come to light within that darkness. I can look back on those times and say that they were so beautiful, and the way we handled everything made us closer and more in tuned with each other and our purposes. We developed solid boundaries, went through a lot of transformation, which was so necessary for us to be where we are today.

I’ll get more detailed about everything else later, but for now we are talking about Flow over Force, that experienced sat me down and made me face myself, I couldn’t run, I couldn’t hide behind work or business, it was nothing keeping me from being present in my reality.

What I love most about it all, is that I had to really learn what faith meant, which ushered in this flow energy. When I took time out of the matrix and practiced faith, over and over again, meaning doing whatever work or things that need to be done internally, and the other part was trusting that I am divinely provided for, and I mean beyond this physical realm, that’s when my life became more magical.

For instance, I don’t try too hard to do anything, but I also discern when I should be trying, so therefore I can work at something and know when it’s time to let it sit, or I can be indulged in something and when it’s time to move on, things just work with me, this is without me having to make too many decisions or have too many thoughts around when it’s time to proceed, it just flows and I don’t question it, it’s natural, it’s harmonic.

I look back and think about my current goals for my life and I laugh a lot, before this nomadic journey started, I just knew that I didn’t want my life to feel so hard, I wanted to see my abundance without trying to hard to achieve. Currently, I live in Philly (my hometown) and being here feels so divine and meaningful, not just for me but for Lils too, I’m happy that we did not force Phoenix on ourselves. The irony is that I was calling in flow energy and my guides led me to the water, the mighty ocean to be specific, just wow.

YEMAYA

I think about the Goddess energy of Yemaya, she is the ruler of the ocean, responsible for the flow of the tides, symbolizing motherhood, nurturing, embodying unconditional love, compassion and protection, yet she is also violent and destructive when angered, but she does not easily lose her temper. As I allowed my shadow self to be integrated, I see a lot of Yemaya’s energy in myself, I give thanks to source for guiding me to the ocean, for grounding me in love yet allowing me to express anger and destruction as needed, for discernment, and for life itself, I’m infinitely grateful to be in this flow space, its balance, its harmonic, its reality.

Flow over Force